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Im back here in Manila. I was in Bicol all week as you all know. I missed you guys specially you. I love your new layout!!! You are right Maroon 5 is a good band, I love their song "Harder to Breathe". Well anyway, there's nothing I did much in Bicol but watch Discovery Channel. Call me a nerd or whatever you want but I love that channel. I saw their show about the lost city of Troy and it's the koolest. Now I cant wait to see this movie. I also love that show they did about Queen Nefertiti and I saw the re-run of how animals have sex =/
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When I was six, I imagined myself that after 16 years, when Im 22, Ill be wearing shoes with heels dressed in nice clothes and Ill hardly have bad hair days. Now, Im 22... I wear flat sandals, t-shirts and jeans and everday is a bad hair day!!! Im 22 and a bum.. Im a loser U_u;; My family wants me to work but I still want to finish another major and I know Im becoming a burden to my family. Well, what the fuck they want me to do?? Teach high school kids? Ugh! Its either they fuck off or they gimme a 9 inch knife so I can cut my throat before I become a teacher.
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Btw, I just bought a 2pac Greatest Hits CD. The hell with the cd, the songs are good but they dont have the lyrics in it!!!! But anyway, I LOVE 2PAC
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I want new clothes!!! I want this, , this, this and this. I want this and this, this shoes, this hat, and this bag. Too many wants but no money @_@;;
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Misan, I dunno if its your words or its "his" words XD;; Can I say his name?? Can I??? XP
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I borrowed my sister's Calvin and Hobbes comic book:
Susie: Hey Calvin! Are we near a slaughterhouse, or did you forget your deodorant?!
Calvin: Drop dead, Susie! You're so ugly, I hear your mom puts a bag over your head before she kisses you goodnight!!
Calvin to the readers: It's shameless the way we flirt.

I think it's so cute the way they flirt *___*

If they will not let me study and they want me to work then I will just stay home and be a bum. I will not work, that's it period. Of course they will not be able to stand that so its either they kick me out the house which has 30% possibility or they let me go to school which has 70% possibility. Im a girl so I have better consideration-chance than boys =D

Sabi sa yo, wala na kami nun ni Mike. Eto logs:
aznrox8: REJECTION!!!!!!!!!
aznrox8: *kills u*
aznrox8: :D
kayin99: who was rejected
aznrox8: get a clue
kayin99: haha

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OH YEAH!!! :D

Sobrang pagod ko galing sa school. Grabeh, tagaktak ang pawis ko sa sobrang init. Over naman kasi ang summer dito, para kang nasa loob ng oven sa sobrang init.

Nga pala kanina kausap ko kapatid ni Eric (si Erin) tapos me binangit syang isang girl na sabi daw sa kanya ay virgin pa daw sya. Sabi ko nga eh: WHAT?!!??!. Nagpapatawa ba yung bruhang yun?? Virgin?? Baka virgin sa ilong, nyahahaha!! Malandi pa sa akin yun eh tsaka grabe un mangcareer ng lalaki, as in kalantari tapos virgin pa sya. Ayan na nagkakasala na naman ako. Badtrip ako dun sa babaeng un kasi para syang siko (si kopal). Ewan ko lang ha! Pero naiipokritahan ako sa mga babaeng pinagmamalaking virgin pa sila at naaangasan naman ako dun sa mga nagki-claim na na deflower na sila. Basta I hate virginity issues as much as I hate religion. Puro kaplastikan =/

Kagagahan na naman. Ewan ko, mahal ko talaga si Reb kaya pag sinabi ko hindi ko na mahal un. Wag kayong maniniwala, joke-joke lang un =/ Basta ang hirap ipaliwanag. Nageemote nga ako tuwing naririnig ko kanta ng Hoobastank, ung The Reason. Sana nga hindi na ko magkamali ngayon para hindi na kami nun mag-away tapos lalayuan na naman nya ako tapos maghahabol na naman ako. Hay, anghirap ng kalagayan ko.

Scan ko yung comics ng kapatid ko. Nakakatuwa talagang pagmasdan itong comics na to. Yung pagkakadrawing lang ang tingnan mo, mageenjoy ka na:

She's suppose to be an anime version of you. Sorry the color is blinding ^_^;;

Were leaving, going to the mall to watch Passion of the Christ.

And new layout cuz Im a layout whore :D

Well, the most boring part of the week is finally over!! I spend the past days playing snake and cross-stitching a Thai girl dancing. Its not that I hate holy week here in the Philippines but its the time of the year when the city looks deserted and we have a sauna-like temperature. I saw in the news 2 days ago that there was a supertyphoon coming, I dunno what happened tho o.o;; We were talking about it via text message:

Me: me spertyphoon pdating,umakyat k n s bubong ñu. abangn m dun =D
Elaine: m swimmng kmi 2mrw, wlanghya k, intay k nmn d2
Me: ala k mggawa no!sna ma2loy supertyphoon 2tal d nmn me ksma swimmng ñu, bwahaha!
Elaine: gago k tlga,naalala k 2loy nun bagyo rosing,hanggng 2nd flr haus nmn un baha. me trauma n ko.
Me: cge ingat u n lang.tantyahn mo rn kng dpt k p smma s swmmng. pgmsama pnhon wag n lng. hndi ka p nmn mrunong mglangoy.
Elaine: slamat, nafeel k talagang concern ka.pro d me mlamn kng tlgang concern k o nangaasar n nmn
Me: indi k n nsanay TAUSI!!!
Elaine: ulol ka sheila, gago ka!

Nakita nyo na ba yung commercial ng pepsi?? Yung bago na andun si Beyonce at Britney. Syett! Grabeh katawan ni Beyonce, as in voluptous talaga at bonggacious ang loka. Nasapawan ang beauty ni Britney. Kekeke!! Anlapad ng balakang tapos ang laki ng boobs. Kaloka yung babaeng yun.

Sars is leaving for LA today, ingat mare!! <3

Im interested again in doodling and sketching o.o;; Here are some things I want: graphic tablet, opaque, new set of color pencils, pentel pens, 0.2 pen, skecthbook and new set of pencils





my first graffiti which i drew in an oekaki board .__.;; it says maldita in case you cant read what it says :p


If I will be given one wish, I wish to get out of here in Manila. I dont belong here and Im not happy here. My heart is in Bicol =(

Sa totoo lang, tuliro ako sa lahat ng bagay ngayon. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupunta, kung ano ang sunod kong gagawin at kung pano ko makukuha at magagawa ang mga bagay na gusto ko. Dumating na yung time na alam ko na kung ano talaga ako pagdating sa isang bagay/tao pero gusto ko pa ring makasiguro. Marami nagsasabi na hindi nila mahulaan kung ano takbo at laman ng isip ko. Hilig ko lang libangin sarili ko at mahirap talaga hulaan ugali ko. Kung gaano kabilis magbago ang mood ko sa isang araw na isang oras lang mega-saya ako tapos bigla halos walang dahilan made-depress ako ganun din kabilis magbago ang ugali ko. Ang hirap ng hindi emotionally stable at umaatake sya mga 2 weeks before ng period ko.

Eto nagtarot card reading ako courtesy of Lotus Tarot at akmang-akma ang readings ko. Pero as usual, hindi ko nakuha ang sagot na gusto ko pero at least meron akong guide:

how you feel about yourself now (The Hierophant)
You feel a need for advice or wise council or perhaps spiritual consolation. Someone, or perhaps immediate events, will provide moral and practical guidance.

what you most want at this moment (The Lovers)
The cards suggest that what you most want at this time is to know what choice to make - carry on as you are or take a risk? The risk offers excitement and change and staying as you are .... Well you know what that has to offer. Dare to love, dare to live?

your fears (The Fool)
You are afraid of making the wrong decisions. There is a warning here that fool-hardy, impetuous actions could lead to major problems. Perhaps you feel that you don’t have control over a situation, either personal or professional. You may feel unable to complete a task or stay in a current relationship and fear the consequences of your decisions. Perhaps you know deep down that what you want isn’t really such a good thing.

what is going for you (The Chariot)
Drive, drive, drive, that’s what’s going for you. You certainly aren’t a quitter that’s for sure. The appearance of The Chariot tells of conflicts ending in victory, so don’t give up, battle on and you will succeed. This is a time of movement and change. Expect a journey relating to work, and if you’ve had you’re eye on that car, it will soon be yours.

what is going against you (The Hanged Man)
You are allowing yourself to be victimised and emotionally blackmailed by others or you’re playing the martyr or victim to try and manipulate others. Don’t be too materialistic or try and hang onto someone or something for all the wrong reasons. Someone or something has to go, you must find the ability to let go and give this up - don’t worry it will turn out for the better for you.

Sa totoo lang, ang lakas ng feeling ko na pag bumalik ako dun sa Bicol ay may kung anong naghihintay sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung ano siguro dun talaga ako masaya. Pero mahirap atang makabalik ako dun sa ngayon.

I spent my morning pissing off Mike. Its really funny he was all like "stop messaging me telling me stupid stuffs like who shot the sherriff". LOL. Angsarap nya lang asarin kasi nga pikon. Here's his away message:

... woah you better not piss me off cause im not a person to be fucked with and u know who u are sheila
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Friday - I'M GETTING THAT 1.8L!!!!!!! You hondas betta watch da hell out when I unleash da protege on yo ass!
Hrm.... $684.32 by Tuesday.
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because i will seriously be pissed the fuck off and no one fuckin likes it when im pissed the fuck off. So don't fuck with me and you know who the fuck you are. You will fuckin regret it and unfortuntaely so the fuck will i.

OooOooOoo. Im scared. LOL *whispers...his Protege looks gay, it looks like a toy car*.

Well, anyway, I changed the main page in my domain and I finally made the RIP page. I guess I'll just wait for Mike to wake up so I can make his day :D You are right, I got manic-depressive schizophrenia. It was Eric who first told me I got that =/

Oh gawd no.. Mirc-x is gone, I wonder where all those manga download channels move. I need volume 2 of Zettai Kareshi!!!!!!! Damn Mike, he went to that kappa party without even telling me. Uhh-ahh.. temper, temper *calms herself* That insensitive jerk!! @$$#@#@!!! =D Oh well..

Kill Bill Vol.2 is finally out but Im disappointed that Gogo Yubari's twin sister is not included in the movie. The reviews are not good.. uhmm.. we'll see. I bought some pirated dvd's yesterday and I guess theyre better than the original ones since they are cheaper. Shame on me XD;;

I feel so graphic tablet deprived =( It's not cool using the mouse u_u;; And I want a collection of Calvin and Hobbes books, my sister has The Essential C&H and Im acting like I own it.. Too Many wants @__@;;

About getting back to school. Im trying to find a school here in Manila that offers 2-3 years course with diploma. Ugh! My plan of moving back to Bicol sounds impossible right now and I dont want to think about depressing stuffs.

Me and my sister Plah-Plah are playing counterstrike. We are losing to smart addbots and we are stupid humans. LOL. I enable the friendly fire mode. This is the screenshot before I shot her while she was buying guns and amonitions XD

3 hours ago I was thinking: My life sucks and the world is on to me. But today is my lucky day!! Dum da de de dum dumb!!!!!! Someone is giving me a graphic tablet and my cousin is giving me his Calvin and Hobbes comic books!!!!!! It may sound pathetic for a 22-year old and I know I should stop bumming around but that's not possible atm because Im not really a bum. I got work here in the computer shop and here in our house. It's been almost a month since our housemaid left and were having a hard time with the chores. But I need to find ways to earn money. Money is what makes me happy =/

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What is wrong with my brain when it comes to html?!?!?! Damn, I need to use Dreamweaver but Im too lazy to download the program. I dont even know if there is a trial version of it. I got Frontpage but oh well.. And will you stop laughing at me Eric!?!? You know you're a loser even you dont want to admit that. Ok, I know it will make you laugh more than Im throwing a fit over you laughing at me =/

I'll have the Avril fanlisting up by tomorrow. I dun even know why I want it back and now I have to make blinkies and codes and other shits. I deleted my old ones saved in my server and I dont want to blame myself cause no regrets, they dont work, they only hurt. Hahaha!! That's a Robbie Williams song.

Shhh!! I think Im going crazy. My hormones are the weirdest I have =/ A guy just told me he thinks Im nice and cool. And then days ago Mike told me Irwin said Im cool. Gesh, those people doesnt have the slightest idea on what kind of person I am. I am no life queen. They try to keep me away from my social life because I always tend to hang around with the wrong crowd. Well, that's what they think. And Im not nice, ask my closest friends. Im spiteful and evil and immature. And Im not cool, I am a seasonal outgoing and seasonal loner person. Im just weird. Im even scared of myself sometimes o.o;;
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Like Myst Im having terrible headaches because of the extreme heat during the afternoon. But it all started last Sunday when I went to a parlor and I had hair relax. I dunno but its either its that machine they let us sit on and put that round heater on our heads or its the way that gay guy in the parlor washed my hair (I felt like he was pulling my hair) that started this headache.... I feel like my head is throbbing from time to time and my eyes are about to come out. Sars is so lucky that she is in LA right now and she cant feel the summer heat here in the Philippines.

About my day, I went to school today to get my graduation ticket and toga. I didnt have my graduation photo taken yet because I got a pimple in my left cheek. LOL. I hate my period cause they give me pimples. Anyway, it was fun cursing out the girl who was giving our toga. I thought my classmate Ria is going to fight with her @__@;; Btw, my hair is getting long now XD;;

Im moving to Bicol on June!!!!!!!!!

This really made me laugh.

My personal life has been hell since yesterday. I dont want to say I dont care anymore cause I still do. Someone lied to me and I feel betrayed and I know he's still lying to me until now but I dont hate him. I know in myself what he wants me to do and he's going to get what he wants. Whatever it is, Im going to keep it in myself. Then there's another person who thinks Im trying to guilt trip him when I only want to make him see that whatever it is, it is wrong. I miss his old personality, he was nice, honest, funny and caring but now I dont know him anymore. He can hate me or ignore me, its his choice. If Im going to die today, I'll go straight to hell. LOL.

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Yesterday some psycho kid (about seven years old) in the bookstore came up to me, touch my butt (-_-) and told me "oh youre here". I was all like o.o;;. Cause I dont know him and he followed me wherever I go. He even tried blocking my way and ram me over with a stool >_<;; But he seemed to be fond of me =x Then he grabbed a Lilo & Stitch book and starts talking to me about the characters in the movie he knows. Truth is, he scared me that I forgot that i went to the bookstore to check on comic books. Good thing I lost him =D

Today is our graduation practice and Im late as always.

Hey Mike, my sister really likes chatting with you. So be nice to her :p

A lot of bad things had been going on. Ha-ha! Karma is working on me, LOL. But does double jeaopardy works in the world of karma?? *shrugs* I had a lot of fun with paint. Paint is God. LMAO. I changed this site's layout, my guestbook and the stupendous boy site is back. I need to renew it before the end of May tho =(

Btw, this site was inspired by this comic strip, the image was by drawn some godly Japanese dude and I love the way he drew the little girl. She reminds me of Susie Derkins... Im really a Calvin and Hobbes whore.

Mike tried dumping me the other night. Well, he get really piss at me when I say to him "gimme money". LOL. I was annoyed by the fact that he spend his money on his stupid car. Opps.. I mean he could've gave a part of that money he waste on his car to charity. A lot of people are starving in Africa!! What do I care anyway?? Im just jealous that he got money while Im flat broke. LOL. He said when I tell him to give him money, it makes him feel like Im trying to use him for money. Wow, Im speechless =D Another issue was he said I called him stupid for liking me. I cant remember I said that and if I do, then its just a joke. I always call my friends' boyfriends stupid for hooking up with them. LOL. I know it sets him off when I act like a mindless four-year old but I love it when he's mad at me o.o;; It's weird. So I spend hours begging him not to dump me. Some people just live without pride. LOL. I know it was my mistake, anyway.

OMFG!!! I found this great Japanese art site. I wish talents can be stolen ._________.;; A lot of people can draw perfect face and body but most lack style and creativity but whoever owns that site, he is full of style and creativity. IM FUCKING JEALOUS!! =(

Im missing Sars, she havent reply to my text message yet.

Im about to take a bath. My whole body is sore from over-sleeping @__@;; I have places to go today and Im going to sell my cellphone and Im hoping I can buy a new one. It's not cool that Im bleeding for material things. Well, uhmm.. Im a material girl XD;; ..............Who is not anyway??

I got this test from Jei and I always admire her layouts: techy and goth-like. HAPPY BDAY!!! <3


Which Rock Chick Are You?

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Zero and zero is nothing but zero
Cancer and people conspire together
Running and running and going forever
Collected and sampled, starving for zero

I can so relate to that song knowing in myself that my life is stagnant.... going nowhere.. I just dont have a sense of direction and Im getting nothing from everything Im doing. Wow, my life is so fun (-_-)

Slipknot got a new album and I saw the video in Yahoo Music. I noticed Corey's not wearing his dreadlocks, he have his hair loose with red streaks and his mask look different or maybe its just my eyes @__@;;

I found this in Maggot Corpse, about how Corey joined Slipknot:
Shawn Crahan knew Corey as "The King Of Des Moines" when StoneSour were the biggest band in town. The public didn't like the heavier songs he was writing. Then Shawn Crahan recruited him into Slipknot. Apparently this decision was made by Shawn, Joey and Mich going intoCorey's porn shop and "basicaly told me if I didn't join the band they'd kick my fucking ass".

Its so gay that everyone wants things to be their way and when they cant make you do something, they get other people make you do it. Now, I feel like Im going into conniptions. Ahh!! Temper..temper... Real people are full of shits